Lyrics:

3 am I answer my phone
and the message sends a shock threw my bones.
I‘m glad and sad at the same time,
after his disease he finally died.
His death i can ignore,
but i‘ve been alone before.
The darkness made me odd
and I hear the voice of recurring thoughts.

Put that knife into your hand,
sop being phony be a man.
It will be a fucking bliss,
make that step and cut your wrist.

As i stab the blade threw my vain,
I feel a warm release of the pain.
I leave my body and i fly,
to the stars god damn im high.
In the shadow of the moon,
I feel pure love, I fly towards the light.
But something pulls me back!!!

I wake up in the hospital room
Beepings of machines are making me sick
I start to cry, breath hard and i snap
I rip the tubes out my throat
I run out to the coridor, a nurse wants to hold me back
I punch her in her face and slip threw.
I run up the staircase to the top of the Hospital,
I run fast towards the edge and i jump!!!

As i fly now towards the ground,
I let go of anger and nagging doubt
You are a good boy mother she said,
The world turned up side down under my head
My life passes before my eyes, as i crash.

I see all my loved ones that passed away
I hug them to death,
I’m happy. No more sorrow.
Johnny wake up, Johnny wake up,
My mother wakes me up, I dreamed it was a dream

Put that knife into your Hand (free)
Stop being phony be a man (me)
It will be a fucking bliss (freedom)
Make that step and cut your wrist (cut)